At a Loss For Words...

I know, strange for me....

I belong to an incredible support group for TTC/Pregnant friends.
I've built strong relationships with these ladies and I love them ALL so much...
they provide so much support and encouragement...
and I couldn't be happier for them.

But there's a problem...

Out of 20+ members, there are only about 5 "stragglers" or should I say strugglers who are still TRYING TO CONCEIVE... and I'm one of them.

I'm not saying that I feel "out of the loop", it's just that I want to feel more "IN the loop" and the only way for that to happen is to GET KNOCKED UP!

I've come to the realization that I'm a minority, and it HURTS. It doesn't matter where I go, there are beautiful baby-filled bellies everywhere.

I want one too, DAMN IT!

You know, people say "just have fun, relax, and it'll happen", but my "strugglers" know that it's not that easy!

Babies are made from their parents LOVE...
and effort,
and pain,
and tears!

*Please Lord, ease my mind. Amen*

I Changed My Mind.

I've decided that I WILL use the Prometrium again this cycle.
My period arrived less than 48 hours after the last Prometrium pill at just 12.5 dpo. That tells me that I may still need some progesterone supplementation. I'm going to try to go with Lucas to the Dr. on Thurs. so I can get "first-hand" information, ask questions, and sneak in a couple questions about myself too.

I'm on CD 2 today and already feeling "over" this 2 week wait, although I promised myself that I'd relax a bit this cycle and try to enjoy the process a little more.
I know I'm young, but I feel that with every "missed" cycle, I'm losing time.
I realize that God knows the desires of my heart, but I wish that our timeframes were in sync with each other.
This is Month 8, and Cycle 9 of TTC!

*Dear Lord Jesus, I pray today and ask that You guide our Dr's mind with Your wisdom, that You heal mine and Lucas' bodies, and I ask for peace in knowing that we will conceive again in Your time. In Your Name, I pray, AMEN*


I hope everyone had a lovely Thanksgiving and that you will all have a blessed HOLIDAY SEASON with the people you love!