I could just cry....

tears of happiness and relief!

These past 9 weeks have been an emotional roller-coaster wreck!
I'm not sure if it was the supplemented progesterone or what, but I have been hormonally unstable, aka SUPER BITCH!
Constantly yelling at my husband and kids, no patience whatsoever, even wondering why I wanted so badly to bring another child into this world when I couldn't even enjoy the ones I already have!

But this past week has been a breakthrough! I've found some patience, I can actually talk to people at a normal volume and without a pissy tone of voice. I'm again enjoying everything that made me happy before!
This revelation couldn't have come at a better time, I seriously thought that I needed anti-anxiety medication.

And although I seem to be MORE tired over the past week, I've actually found the energy and motivation to start cleaning my house from top to bottom. Yesterday was the bathroom, today has been in, on, under, and around my couch, as well as scrubbing some of my floors on hands and knees (I know, my ass in the air is not the picture you wanted in your head).

Thank GOD for hormonal balance!

Pass the ginger, please...

Morning (all day) sickness has hit me!
Now, I'm fortunate I know that I'm not actually throwing up. But the all day nausea is kinda difficult with 2 other young ones running around.

Thank goodness that Millie is old enough to understand about me not feeling 100%. I've already explained that sometimes momma will feel sleepy and like throwing up, but it's ok- that means the baby is growing big and strong. She totally gets it. And today she comes downstairs with her stuffed moose exclaiming that "Olivia (the moose's name) has a baby in her tummy and she feels like throwing up", I cracked up!

So, I've been sleeping with my crystallized ginger next to my head, when I wake up, I immediately pop one and wait a few minutes to get up. I totally believe ginger is the nausea miracle food!

With my previous pregnancies, the nausea lasted from 6-11 weeks.
1 day down, 34 to go!

...From the Rooftops!

I think these pictures are self explanatory!




Yes, our time has come! We have been blessed again.

I woke up on Christmas Eve, knowing but dreading the fact that I needed to take a home pregnancy test. I had been cramping for 2 days and I just knew that I would see a negative, stop taking my Prometrium, and my period would show up a couple days later.
Much to my surprise, the test was definetely POSITIVE! All I felt was complete shock! I wanted to wait to tell Lucas on Christmas Day but he knew something was up when he saw my look on my face. I fell into his arms crying and shaking!
We told most of the family right away. Something about this pregnancy felt so different and so right compared to the last one!
Hopeful, yet cautious- I waited to tell most of my DOOPS girls. I needed some reassurance first. On Dec. 26th, I had blood drawn to check my HCG and Progesterone levels. The great news came back yesterday. HCG- 433 (above average) and Prog.- 55.2 (Perfect)!!!
I had a repeat test done yesterday and I'll get those results on Friday, Jan. 2nd.

Thank you again to all my friends and family who have supported me, laughed, cried, and smiled with me. I would not have made it down this road without you!

At a Loss For Words...

I know, strange for me....

I belong to an incredible support group for TTC/Pregnant friends.
I've built strong relationships with these ladies and I love them ALL so much...
they provide so much support and encouragement...
and I couldn't be happier for them.

But there's a problem...

Out of 20+ members, there are only about 5 "stragglers" or should I say strugglers who are still TRYING TO CONCEIVE... and I'm one of them.

I'm not saying that I feel "out of the loop", it's just that I want to feel more "IN the loop" and the only way for that to happen is to GET KNOCKED UP!

I've come to the realization that I'm a minority, and it HURTS. It doesn't matter where I go, there are beautiful baby-filled bellies everywhere.

I want one too, DAMN IT!

You know, people say "just have fun, relax, and it'll happen", but my "strugglers" know that it's not that easy!

Babies are made from their parents LOVE...
and effort,
and pain,
and tears!

*Please Lord, ease my mind. Amen*

Partners in Crime!

I seriously don't know what I'd do without my TTC/Pregnant friends online. It gets to the point in the TTC journey where no one in real life wants to hear about it anymore. Whereas the online friends (DOOPS girls- you know who you are) could talk about it till the end of time. They will support all your decisions, sometimes they'll be a make-shift Dr, they'll cry and laugh with you, and they'll beg to see a picture of your latest pee-stick so they can manipulate the pic until everyone's seeing double lines.

I truly value their support: their opinions and advice, their way of clarifying a situation, their heartfelt thoughts and prayers, their constant shoulders for crying on, and their hands for picking me back up.

I love yall!

And for my Partners in Crime, -M-, -A-, and -J-, I love yall even more!!!

Adventures on Prometrium

My side effects so far:

Let's see how many of these I can complain about?

(Abdominal cramping, back pain, bloating- just stick a pin in me, breast tenderness or pain, chest pain- happened last night when I breathed in deeply, constipation, coughing- might be from a dry throat and sinus drainage though, depression, diarrhea- yep, dizziness, emotional instability- omg yes, poor Lucas, fatigue, headache, hot flashes, irritability- is this the same as bitchiness ?, joint pain, muscle pain, nausea, night sweats, swelling of hands and feet, upper respiratory infection, urinary problems, vaginal discharge- uh yah, I expected this one (What goes in, must come out), vaginal dryness- how about irritation (sure is itchy down there), viral infection-damn it, are you serious, I do feel a cold coming on AGAIN, vomiting, worry )

So there you have it. This drug is a fun trip!

I'm 5 dpo (days past ovulation) today. As recommended by Dr. Cool, I'll start peeing on a stick in 5 more days (Sunday)! He wants me to test earlier so that a) I can call him about our plan of action if I'm pregnant and b) because I have to stop the meds within a reasonable amount of time if I'm not pregnant.

At 5dpo, the blastocyst is making it's way to the end of the fallopian tube and into the uterine cavity, where it will begin implantation into the endometrial lining soon.

So, I gotta question for all the psychics out there:
Am I pregnant?
What day will I get my +++ pregnancy test?

p.s.- Swami Sydni said November was my month and since my cycles are shorter, I got 2 chances for November.

That's all for now, maybe more a little later.